I began this project wanting to dispel the notion that all people with AIDS
in Africa are sick and dying. Naively, I set out to show people living with
this diseaseat work, at home, with their familiesand to photograph
them the same way I might photograph my own family going about daily life.
But this plan, in part, failed. Many Ethiopians living with HIV that I met
had not told their families and were reluctant to speak with me. Many simply
refused to be photographed, saying that they were afraid their employers
might fire them, their landlords might evict them from their homes, or their
unforgiving family members might alienate them.
Out of necessity
I developed a different documentary approach. Instead of making photographs
of family life, I began to make portraits at counseling centers, omitting
the subjects' real names, and leaving them unidentifiable. Some participants
worried that I would somehow manipulate the images to show their faces.
In response, I used a Polaroid photographic process that was slow and deliberate.
I often lugged a tripod and other cumbersome equipment with me. I used positive-negative
film that develops both a print and a negative a minute after exposure.
The subjects and I would look at the photographs together and decide whether
their faces were truly hidden. If they were, I could use the image in exhibits
and for publication. If they werent, we would dispose of the negative
on the spot. This collaborative process allowed me to create images that
express what the participants want others to see about their lives.
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